its been wake up. report to darling's house. snuggling up to him. breakfast. gym. swim. lunch. fun fun fun for the last study week and these 2 exam weeks(1 down.3 more days to go) its great going to to Coffee Bean. chatting up with nana the pokers. getting all excited and jumpy when darlin comes up. getting free drinks and loads of free food. i love it!
fri the 23 was absolutely my day! i love surprising darling with sweet somethingss. green lollis! Sakae made us FULL.Bloated and a tonn heavier: ( but great satisfaction! Bowling with darling's my new found hobby. he's too good for my own good!! * honey, next time let me win!!* Brothers grimm..well, thumbs up for it:) dar has lil knowledge on bedtime tales. * ill tell u some. sing u ure lullaby. cuddle u to sleep*
he's a rocker. he rocked my day. ohh so totally!Sat's a study day! been playing too much. laughing too much. asking for too much for bike rides. cheap thrills. i want them all! dinner with darling's parents was good! Xiao Long Bao. gimme more more more! : ) well. shopping.. my all time fav. just fill my pockets with cash. ull make me a happy happy girl. all smiles and laughter.
watcha waiting for?up.
{12:51 AM}
im sorry,
i tried not to hurt you but in the end got you so HURT,
i didnt mean to do anything, i was not playing behind youre back..
please believe me darling, u aint standing in between anyone. haiz
the thought of you leaving me kills me. it really kills me....!! it makes my heart weak and pain.. it drives my brain to madness.. i was almost to that state yesterday thats why i burst out so badly.. I DONT WAN ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU.. you're the only person who will believes and understand me now. not even my mum..
im sure you know how much you mean to me,
how much i wan us to be together.
i didnt mean to hurt you so deeply.. causing those scars.
seeing tears in your eyes made me feel so much pain, yet it was all caused by me.
im feeling so down now, each time i think about it i feel like crying so bad.
i hope i can pass my exams. they're such a burden to me now.
I WAS IN THE WRONG yet you've given me a second chance.
im grateful that i can continue giving you my love.
i've never take you for granted
i promise i wont do it again. be it talking normally or helping her. i will not let you down ever again. i promise. please let us be normal again? i'll pray and hope god will help us. i will win back your trust.
sad sweet pea
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{8:23 AM}
I love you and I need you don't wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Just remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away
trust gone rusty. scars get deeper. mind starts racing. where do i belong?
insecurity drives me over the blues to insanity. grant me the strength to trust again. all these crap. im living in my man made fairy tale. knock me out of this dream. tell me the road's neverending. give me words to make this entry a nice one.
sigh
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{11:28 PM}
ure my internal sunshine of my spotless mind
u rise and never set.
jealousy. it got u wild. got u envious. drove u insane.
we understand. our popularity's overwriting. drowns ure presence.
ure 'beauty' incomparable
a note of advice? grow up. wanna bitch? do it with style u plaguey snowball
my trunk load of projs, reports n assignments. just gimme a break
law-abiding bus conductors can kiss my arse. retained my bro's ezy link card i was using. urg...
darling's stressed over his exams. chill baby chill. ull do absolutely fine: )
na and peng's missing in my lonesome live. so empty. so hollow. fill up the blanks besties.
but thank god for blessing me with this captivated lover.
thank him for being there for me. always.
i need to go on some shopping spree with my mom. tho i shop quite a bit, its never enough. always running out of clothes. we hafta go shopping. soon soon soon: )
we'll be going for a swaroski jewelry sale next week. hurrays.on second thoughts, i rather skip that. such jewelry is not significant to me at this point of time.
i await this retail therapy!
im thinking of getting a lappy.
any good deals?
up.
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