I'll paint in down in black and white,


I love you


And thats all that really matters to me.

jss & ling

wants.

Havaianas heels
Volcom Jacket
Apple Powerbook
a Bike Ride!!!
Shoppin' Spree in HK
3s come knit skirt
More Ca$h
Loss Weight
YOU

nope..i'm not sufferin from insomnia! x) haha..can't sleep..i can actually lie on my bed turnin and tossin for 2 hours and not get into lalaland..cool right? hehe..guiness book of records! xD anyway you should be the one takin care..you're workin too hard! school's startin soon for you..time to leave your job behind and start muggin aiight! take care. much love.

nigel. <3

are u suffering from insomia ? Its not funny. U rarely slept for the past few days. Dont worry me! The least i want to hear is you falling ill X ) -Coaxs u off to sleep. Talk to the shepherd. count the sheeps. Lil one, go to sleep : ) I think its ure com that's faulty. I see everything perfectly fine! heh. Precisely, You cant possibly love her yet disk her aside hating her so quickly. Its not right, wont be right, never will be right.You take care. much love <3 :)

I decided to be a lil retarded and walk around my house with my extra big headphones and discman[backdated i know. ty. please go on :/ ] listening to my mp3s. Which i rarely get to listen to. Lets see, I only get it hear it after i reach home from work. So thats barely 2 hrs of much. Well, 6hrs plus of listening to it in my dreams as well :) My dad shook me out of sweet dream lala land this morning, scolding me for leaving my hi fi set on the whole night. Come on! Spare me, i really need my sleep! Btw, jan, na and myself would be going for this modelling this for Phillips Products. I know nuts about freelance modelling. Enlighten me [Once again]. Decided to give it a try X) would be a new experience and a whole lot of fun with my 2 besties. So why not? XP

i really dont wanna go to work.it bores me. -Shrugs off X(

what crazy fella!? haha..is i can't..! if you hate a person after you've been together for 2 years..then you didn't love the person before and the relationship shouldn't even have started..x) boo! i can't seem to see anything on the blog except for entries..bahhh..i needa rest badly..=/ lol..but somehow can't get to sleep..someone save me..i didn't neglect piggy hor! don't anyhow say me..xD heh.
take care.

nigel. <3

so i realise im big, fat, ugly and white. Hence, ill go step on my stepper.

-stomps off

i had a excellent day. now i cant wait for myself to stop work and enjoy my day like a normal teenager should.

had my caramel frap. chilled out at starbucks. Smiless X)

-stomps off [ this time i mean it ]

<3 X)

i swear ure one crazy fella who goes all out to depreive yourself of ure sleep and rest. Bad bad bad. Get ure sleep! Im not neglecting him. You are the one neglecting him? -pouts [on piggy's behalf] enjoy working! X)


Yesh Sheena, i finally understand how you felt when you and my brother were debating over the 'Lesbian and Gay' issue. Now im debating with jss over some 'Love & Hate' issue. I just cant get over the fact that how you really love someone so dearly once and in a blink of an eye, you hate the person so much you treat her/him like dirt. Thats just wrong. bad bad bad. Like come on, he was with he's ex for 2 yrs plus. Im sure that despite all that uve been thru, a part of you still loves her alot. 3 mths and im like this. 2 yrs plus and ure full of hate?

enlighten me.

i feel the need for a game of tennis, a cup of nice Iced Cafe Latte with Vanilla from Starbucks. Grocery shopping at Carefour/Giant. A book or two at the library. A plate of nice waffles or desert: ) i feel so lifeless. i need to get a life. rather than working my self dead lifeless. ahh!

lol..x) ya right..5am..time to sleep..heh..x) dun neglect piggy ok!! he angry then you know..kim 'mor' o.0 levi's o.0.. familiar..reminds me of someone..haha..nigel's his name. boo! anyway sleepin time..=/ gotta work in 2 hours time. haha..byeee take care..x)

nigel. <3

Have my cuppa coffee and maybe u wont need to report to work for long. cause baby u will be visiting ure toilet a whole lot more. haha! X) hair : kim 'mor' shirt: levis who is this great resemblance to?! must be a pig in disguise.. Im just studying more about Coffee.[No no.. not coffee]. Tea[No! not teh either]. Just me[uve got it!]

hmm..hair? brand of shirt? lol..who does your trainer resemble? boo! your vulgarities are really gone eh!? hee.. that's good..anyway glad you're enjoyin' yourself studyin bout coffee and tea..[or me?] haha..kiddin'.. take care.. shall catch up with you someday or have a cuppa coffee brewed by you eh!? x)

nigel. <3

i couldn't stop laughing over this.
A mouse. Then came the whiper mini [ i tot it was the smallest and most compact thing i could ever find]. then a Whiper Petit!!? [ man, i feel so back dated. my bro uses such a cool object? man, i need to be updated ]

thanks for filling in the blanks : )

im glad my I/C's in safe hands. work @ suntec. Boring as per normal. Sales was bad bad bad. X( Well, so i decided not to bother customers. They want it, they'll buy it right? [ Tell me thats the way things go. oh pretty please ] cabbed to Henderson for my lesson. World of Cofee. This time i learned about Coffee. And i shall confess. I was dozing off half of the time. Yesh, im just tired, lethargic and not in the mood to listen. Hmms i hate to say this but the trainer looks [ in one way or another. or maybe its just the hair. or maybe its just the brand of the shirt] awfully familiar to someone. ahh. once again. AHH! Alright, for my tea Quiz i scored a 80% and for my coffee quiz 90%. MAN! Both Estee and myself just exchanged looks of disappointment and started calling our manager Tony. Sighs. BIG SIGH! Reason being we wanted so badly to beat my stupid mangager David in that quiz. He scored 90% & 90%. OH WELL! Tony was so nice, comforting us and ensuring that he will prepare us well for our final quiz and beat that silly good-for-nothing david's butt. So batch #73 is one funky group and we snapped a few group shots.it'll be ages before we ever meet up again. maybe never? '14'ed home.

i had a weird encounter again. what on earth is happening. X(

heh.. i filled in the blanks. -sm:)es x)
take care. and your vulgarities are gone! -beams xD

nigel. <3

ill be a ku ku nut head and start screaming up and down, bouncing off the walls, annoucing to the world. 'I found my I/c, Ezi link, T3 card, Esprit Card, Seventeen Card and a torn old movie stub' -BIG GRINS BAYBEY XD !
thank a million goodness time i blogged last night. *Leapsss!! heh.

but but but. its a Toa Payoh.. how on earth am i going there? bad bad bad.. helpss!


-GRINS

"Every move i make.. every single day.. everytime i pray.. ill be missing you.. "

"..but it's just another one of those days,the way you made it all feel so right"

i need to blog. gut feeling's telling me if i dont blog chances of me finding my cards, I/C, T3 card are gone gone gone. X(

early in the morning. the least u expect and want is having ure dad wake you up from ure [sweet oh so sweet] dreams asking you to find things when ure in a total state of daze?? oh well. tennis was good: ) just that i realise i spent more energy picking up the balls rather than whacking them. then gymed. feeling a twit fatter than my normal self. [ i really am.. X( ] gobbled up ice cream.-slurpss X) had 'gai zhok[how on earth do u spell tt]' if im sounding alien to u, it means chicken porridge! Collin was ill u see. yadidayada.. -im trying real hard.but i just cant get it right.they are nice.but it aint the samee.na na pokers save me pls- went to Coffee Bean HQ for my World Of Tea class. Hmmm, its only till today that i realise that every cup of tea is a combination of patience, hard work, precise cupping of yadidayada.... its interesting. Ive decided to sip on more Carnival Mate tea from now on. Cause apparently, it rejuvenates one's soul, lifts one's spirits and aids in the lose of weight. Excellent! just the right tea for me. Ill probably read up more on tea from now on. Its amazing how it is actually made: ) ask me, im most willing to share my knowlegde with u!

forgive me. my attitude. my pmsy-self.


some pics?

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what happened to you..why all the vulgarities..x/ you've changed..sigh..and you're working too hard..go easy on yourself..call me if you need me..x)

take care aiight..
nigel. <3

ps, can't seem to get you on your phone or msn lately..are you alright? x/

" say its me that u adore.. "

spooky days. i realised im being stalked. [ or what?] elaborate later in my entry.

Sun. work again. high sales. peaking sales babbey! X) knn. 800. tell me is that great or what. yadidayadayada. boring..
*ACTIVE NIGHT LIFE* pick me up in 8`parallel parking`one more time`simpang bedok`prata`milo dino`intepret the indian convo`crack me up`hail to haider[n his sly-lookalike-fren]`safe them from their long walk home`clean sneak crime`hit the bed`gurl ure shagged`

mon. mommie's one kan chiong spider [like me]. 13`passed a stop`guy in black stares`stares back. met jss at his stop. 14`guy in black`same bus now`stares a whole lot more`cant be bothered to stare. met mom at Paragon. she got her Estee Lauder lip palette! thank goodness for having jss by my side. my mom decided not to eat my head off. heh. they strike their first convo X) mom, " jonathan, not working today?" jss,"[i didnt get what he said]" hahahha! off to work.. boring as per normal. i became love sick and wrote na na pokers a love letter. sales was like LOW. 300. boring. erm. sheena, mom, dad, the bear replied me today. does that ring the bell that uve gotta get my room at Hougang Chalet all ready and all? -gigglesss.. neh neh neh! its amazing how my throat was on the verge of commiting suicide. how i open my mouth to promote my products and no voice comes out of my fucking mouth. X( bad bad bad. some misunderstanding. but im a forgiving soul! Come down in person with a cup of WCD(R) IB. apologise and forgiven u will be! so to repay my kindness, i was taken to dinnner at Kenny Rogers for a rejuvenating meal of meat and more meat [how could i forget Macaronni & Cheese!and yadidayada mash potatos. beans] X) " ill take u to the candyshop"-50 cents by all means . take me to the Candy Empire. REjoice! Hail to all the chocos and candies that make my life so full of surprises. making me high as tho on ecstacy! oh la la..! then.. *PAY ATTENTION HERE* 14`guy in black shirt`stares again`shocked`jss mentions he has something to tell me`i mention i have something to tell him too`exchanges shock look. he said that guy in black shirt was at Centerpoint's busstop on sat night too. he stared [ according to jss] i cant recall seeing him. Fucking sheet. Means in all. i met him 4 fcuking times.!!
1.Sat. CP. After work
2.mon. on 13. morn
3.mon. on 13. morn
4.mon. on 14. night
spooky?? yeshhhh. ahhh! stalker.
im slpy. off to bed. much love <3 ; )

"Its all about you..its all about you baby.. its all about you.. its all about you.."

Pmsy me. had no mood to work today. Closed shop exactly at 815 Sharp! haha left 15 mins earlier than im supposed to! but who cares. im meeting my dear bestie X) jss and i walked or rather we brisk walked all the way to Fullerton! Here am i making a public apology to my two besties. I didn't intentionally ignore ure calls! I didn't notice the calls! So so sorry. heh. So lucky jonathan made reservations.. cause it was quite packed. -SLurpss...!! Heaven oh it seemed. High as tho on estacy.. Life never was so complete till u finally sit down in awfully great restuarent and have a 'dinner' [ that consists of nothing but chocolates and more chocolates ]. tea. and good company with two of the best peeps u could ever long for. and my sweetthing everything slurps jss. Thanks peeps, life has never been so great till u stepped in and everything fell right into place! ' Besties and chocolates makes my day so fine a laitX ) ' Thats right. i really enjoyed myself today. tho its a really expensive way: P

i enjoyed having dad send me to work.pmsing during work. receiving roses in a lovingly surprising manner.rushing to fullerton. my chocolate meal with excellent company. desperately trying to hail a cab in the midst of nowhere. reaching home late without being lectured by my parents X)

my dad's gonna go lecturing jonathan once again. waste money again! heh. hmmm. heh. its funny. its so assuring to have ure bestie give u good feedback. [na please get what i mean!] it feels good. tmr's work at coffee bean! closing shift once again. but its with lisa, tony, jian hao and jonathan! so reporting work no longer holds a dread. its much more of being excited to work!

haha. i would like to applaud my 2 besties for being much fab chocolate munchers! however, Mr Jonathan Samuel Sean, ure a really terrible chocolate gobbler. heh.
both myself and jss are down with a really bad sorethroat and yet we had so much chocolate. i swear we're not gonna have any voice to do cashier tmr. heh. X)


Sweetpie.Honeysticks.A bear oh so adorable and brown held a bouquet of rose for me. What more can i ask for? Surprises oh surprises.. i love 'em : )

backtracking time...
wed 20 april. work @ suntec! heh. was sneazy sick. so i was too busy nursing my own self to notice the time flying by so quickly. Closed shop. Short of 10 cents. wth? then i went down to coffee bean to 'helped closed ib and eb station' haha lisa wanted me down:P i wasnt much of a help anyway. then later on, lisa sent us home in the cabbie. so jon said. u didn't have to come down to help, u came down cause lisa wanted to send u home.-grinss! btw.. i got my pink top and another green ____ to add to my colourful collect!

tues 19 april.no work again! bladed to my 2nd home again.x boxed again! who said something about yiling becoming a game addict? to gelare for waffles. to haider's house. to 136[i forgot the block: P] for dinner with the two ah peks! home sweet home X)

mon 18 april. no work! i took off! someone count. ive been on leave for so many days this week! its not because im a lazy fela okei! itsbecause i have coffee bean training in the morning and sp appointment in the afternoon: ) So i took the train down to redhill for my training. called hl to ask if there were anything i needed to bring for my Sp thingy. BIRTH CERT! O's CERT! goodness. i almost fainted right there. so i skipped my training [reminds me that i haee to go for the make up] took a train.. All the way back home! took my certs and all. terrible terrible terrible. then off for coffee with haider and jon. to haider's place. watched Be Cool in the awfully comfy entertainment room. watched the two kick other dudes arse on GunBound! 1.5hr bus ride to SP. almost died!did my silly billy student pass that looks awfully TOOT! all the camps and silly stuff. Queensway for hotdogs one more time! its becoming a tradition. Goshhh.

off to work! back tonight: ) heh but on second tots. i think ill be too bloated by chocos today to even come home! haha! :P

oh days are passing so quickly. ive lost track of reality. i shall back track my days and test my memory X)
no work today. -leapss! gimme a X D ! thats pretty relieving for a workaholic like me. slogging my days away working for god-knows-how-much-i-need-for-shopping. So i lost my bet. i couldn't wake up at 730am. but who cares? i dont care. u dont care. nobody cares. thank you very much. case close. then i went blading with the bitch. Oh not bitch. we dont say that. we say 'Bytch' [as how Haider says it] x) haha!. So the bytch cycled. while i bladed. ecp. sugar cane drinks. siglap centre. blading down sloes. xbox. pizzas. thats the life. heh. my bytch's bro collin is my dear guan wei's good friend. how much of a coincident is that! lovely.. lovely.. had dinner at their place.. met the bytch's mom. haha she loved using my mascara. what can i say. double extensions rock a 16-going-17 and 48-going-49 year old's toes like... -wiggles..! heh.pardon me for my absolute crapping. ive gone insane.: P then because im so nice and as u know.. wonderful and all.. [puke all u want. haha. LOL im kiddingX) ] bytch's mom said this aiight u can have the car tonight. u guys drive safely ya? [sorry im not a tape recorder and i dont copy word to word. hmmmm ] hehs. came home and thought that i would be get screwed by my parents . but instead! we went totally nuts together! so my mom and i were go-go-ga-ga-ing over the HUGO boss guy. while my dad was asking me to bring jonathan home so that he can lecture him for wasting money buying me flowers. wth?! haha. and mom and i were arguing back saying that we've got to get the flowers coming now! cause once the guy gets u, flowers? Go pick them ureself in the garden. haha! and i complained to them about my irritating manager in coffee bean who irritates me with calls at 2am. ah.. i just spent so much time talking today! my saliva is dying out. my throat is worsening. talking to both mom and dad. talking to dad. talking to bytch..
gay stopped work at topshop already. and he's busy roting away at home.pool @ amk. my buddies are all big bummers who rot their days away.
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i have a date with my two best friends and my bytch les partner tmr for a choco buffet @ fullerton. cant wait. !

ohss been waking up at 7am and hitting the gym at my '2nd home' haha. thanks goodness someone. im hooked to the Xbox. we actually sat down from 830am and played all the way to 1130 then rushed to work. well well.

my hp went swimming in the toilet bowl a day ago. it almost drowned. but it didn't : P

my cbtl managers. lisa and tony are driving me nutss! using my name to bully some poor fella. : P -rawhhss!

stressed out by work @ Suntec today. cashier gave me loads of problems! terrible.. all the voiding and stopping of transition. still shaken by the problems.

i love my colleague Sarah! We drive each other nuts with the loads of M&Ns we gobble down every alternate day that we work. And our tai-tai ambitions we both share.. -dream on my dear yiling. go on .dream on. X) -poutss!

hmmm. the big big bouquet of sunflowers is lovely. really are. : )

na na pokers.. i miss u! meet me SOON! ive got lotss to tell u : (

dont ask me whats next. im lost. im confused. shoot me. i dont know!!! really dont wanna know.. ah. just leave the problem drowing in my mind. like how ive been doing all these while.

25mins. ure just a step too late. maybe? most probably. ?

"I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when" - Quando Quando Quando.

this song. it goes running in my mind. it drives all the worries away. its amazing how we actually replayed it a zillion times without getting sick of it....
"i heard that you've been asking about me.
least that's the word on the street
i just don't know what to believe
why was i dumb enough to leave?
i saw you with him today.
the boy who took my place.
you seemed so much happier with me.
but maybe that's just the way i want it to be.

but it's just another one of those days
the way you made it all feel so right
the way you fit into my arms at night
i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life

but it's just another one of those days
i can't help but feel a little bit sad
about the things you and i never had
i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way.

now, it's just another one of those days.

so, tell me what happens next?
its out of my hands, i guess.
i just don't know what to believe.
why don't you tell me to believe.
why did you let me leave?
it's not the way it's gotta be.
what's wrong with me?
why don't you tell me to believe?
why did you let me leave?
is that the way this has to be?

but it's just another one of those days
the way you made it all feel so right
the way you fit into my arms at night
i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life

but it's just another one of those days
i can't help but feel a little bit sad
about the things you and i never had
i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way.

now, it's just another one of those days."


i shall annoyingly ignore ure questions: P .. for now.

its 1.52am. just reflecting on today..(yesterday)
when all falls down. when ure blardy manager simply doesnt draw the line btwn work and personal issues. when ure on the verge of tears. u call someone up. and the frustration all disappears. thanks na! X)

time flies when working with jonathan 'EB boy!!' EB aka Espresso & Brew : ) . he cracks me up. i wonder why. work sucks with my freaking manager david. die just die. when a girl ignores ure calls.. get the idea and get a life. dont screw her day at work just because u were ignored after work. Work is work! . ure just a manager.. or should i say. only a trainee manager. oh wth..

More pratas at simpang with my dear EB colleague! : ) more pappa roti with my fellow topshop gay partner. more shopping with my newly found Sarah!.. my colleague @ The Choice Suntec X) more of more : ) oh what am i crapping. more na please!!! more na.. miss my dear bestie.. : (

just shoot me. i dont know how to react. sue me.. its its. shocking

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